the bittersweet between my teeth

can't help myself but count the flaws

claw my way out through these walls

one temporary escape

feel it start to permeate

we lie beneath the stars at night

out hands gripping each other tight

you keep my secrets hope to die

promises, swear them to the sky

the bittersweet between my teeth

trying to find the in between

Young Blood- Naked and Famous

I feel really good. Back to being myself again. If I have learned anything over the past few months, it is that I need an outlet where I can be my true self. Pretending to be something I am not, always having my guard up, is exhausting. When I try and do it for too long without release will make me explode. Hard lesson learned. I am not quite ready to talk about the past few months, but I know I should get it out. Soon.

Eating is going well. :) Still can't avoid dinners. Story of my life. But I will eat dinner if it means having Bear.

I need to get off my ass and work out. So tired from working and being busy. I need to stop complaining and just do it. I am going to join a gym this weekend because I can't use the treadmill here anymore. My dad broke it... on purpose... long story for another day.

Stay skinny lovelies,

Nicole

xoxo