British Thinspo

And after the storm,

I run and run as the rains come

And I look up, I look up,

on my knees and out of luck,

I look up.

Night has always pushed up day

You must know life to see decay

But I won't rot, I won't rot

Not this mind and not this heart,

I won't rot.

And I took you by the hand

And we stood tall,

And remembered our own land,

What we lived for.

And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.

And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.

Get over your hill and see what you find there,

With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

And now I cling to what I knew

I saw exactly what was true

But oh no more.

That's why I hold,

That's why I hold with all I have.

That's why I hold.

I will die alone and be left there.

Well I guess I'll just go home,

Oh God knows where.

Because death is just so full and mine so small.

Well I'm scared of what's behind and what's before.

And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.

And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.

Get over your hill and see what you find there,

With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

After the Storm, Mumford and Sons

So since I have been listening to Mumford & Sons nonstop lately, I thought I would do a British inspired post. I would love to go there right now. Honestly, I would love to go anywhere far away from here. haha. But I imagine myself in a pub in London listening to Mumford & Sons live, drinking beer, and not worrying about all the bullshit I have to worry about here. I know that is really silly, but it is nice to think about. I am even watching Love Actually as I am writing this. Man, I am a loser!!

I am starting to get really nervous about this weekend. I know that after this weekend I will not be in the 120s anymore. I worked really hard to get here and now I am going to have to blow it eating out and being under Bear's constant watchful eye. I am also not going to be able to blog until Monday. I know I don't really talk to many people, but it is a huge outlet for me. I am constantly obsessing and stressing about my weight and every single calorie. To come online and let it out and then read about all the other amazing girls who are going through the same thing as me is so therapeutic. I don't know how I am going to last all weekend. I have become too dependent on this. Ah! Anyway, here is the intake for Thursday and Friday.

SGD Day 18 Intake, 2/17/11:

coffee with skim milk- 10 cal

orange- free!

Progresso Chicken Dumpling Soup- 80 cal

Soft Pretzel- 300 cal

coffee with skim milk- 10 cal

Total: 400 cal

Exercise: none

Goal for today: 450 - 50 under goal :)

Intake: 400 cal

SGD Day 19 Intake, 2/18/11:

coffee with skim milk- 10 cal

orange- free!

cheerios with skim milk-140 cal

goldfish- 60 cal

small strawberry crumb bar- 50 cal

banana- free!

tea with skim milk- 10 cal

1/2 slice pizza- 150 cal

cheesesteak pretzel- 350 cal

coffee with skim milk- 10 cal

Total: 780 cal

Exercise: run/walk- 350 cal

Goal for today: 500 - 70 under goal :)

Intake: 430

I got into a stupid fight with my mom today. She is mad because I told my boss that I am going to DC this weekend with Bear. She said "You don't care that she knows that you are going away for the weekend with your boyfriend?" How crazy is she??? We are 24 and 26, have been together for over 5 years and are going to go move him out of his condo. We have never even been on a vacation anywhere because our parents wouldn't like it! Ahhhhhh! She drives me crazy. Ok, rant over. haha. I am out of here tomorrow thank goodness.

Wish me luck!

Stay Strong and Skinny,

Nicole

xoxo

P.S. As usual, I have a few non thinspo pictures that are still relevant to this post. ;)