Saturday, February 19, 2011

British Thinspo

And after the storm,
I run and run as the rains come
And I look up, I look up,
on my knees and out of luck,
I look up.
Night has always pushed up day
You must know life to see decay
But I won't rot, I won't rot
Not this mind and not this heart,
I won't rot.
And I took you by the hand
And we stood tall,
And remembered our own land,
What we lived for.
And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.
And now I cling to what I knew
I saw exactly what was true
But oh no more.
That's why I hold,
That's why I hold with all I have.
That's why I hold.
I will die alone and be left there.
Well I guess I'll just go home,
Oh God knows where.
Because death is just so full and mine so small.
Well I'm scared of what's behind and what's before.
And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.
After the Storm, Mumford and Sons

So since I have been listening to Mumford & Sons nonstop lately, I thought I would do a British inspired post. I would love to go there right now. Honestly, I would love to go anywhere far away from here. haha. But I imagine myself in a pub in London listening to Mumford & Sons live, drinking beer, and not worrying about all the bullshit I have to worry about here. I know that is really silly, but it is nice to think about. I am even watching Love Actually as I am writing this. Man, I am a loser!!

I am starting to get really nervous about this weekend. I know that after this weekend I will not be in the 120s anymore. I worked really hard to get here and now I am going to have to blow it eating out and being under Bear's constant watchful eye. I am also not going to be able to blog until Monday. I know I don't really talk to many people, but it is a huge outlet for me. I am constantly obsessing and stressing about my weight and every single calorie. To come online and let it out and then read about all the other amazing girls who are going through the same thing as me is so therapeutic. I don't know how I am going to last all weekend. I have become too dependent on this. Ah! Anyway, here is the intake for Thursday and Friday.

SGD Day 18 Intake, 2/17/11:
coffee with skim milk- 10 cal
orange- free!
Progresso Chicken Dumpling Soup- 80 cal
Soft Pretzel- 300 cal
coffee with skim milk- 10 cal
Total: 400 cal
Exercise: none
Goal for today: 450 - 50 under goal :)
Intake: 400 cal

SGD Day 19 Intake, 2/18/11:
coffee with skim milk- 10 cal
orange- free!
cheerios with skim milk-140 cal
goldfish- 60 cal
small strawberry crumb bar- 50 cal
banana- free!
tea with skim milk- 10 cal
1/2 slice pizza- 150 cal
cheesesteak pretzel- 350 cal
coffee with skim milk- 10 cal
Total: 780 cal
Exercise: run/walk- 350 cal
Goal for today: 500 - 70 under goal :)
Intake: 430

I got into a stupid fight with my mom today. She is mad because I told my boss that I am going to DC this weekend with Bear. She said "You don't care that she knows that you are going away for the weekend with your boyfriend?" How crazy is she??? We are 24 and 26, have been together for over 5 years and are going to go move him out of his condo. We have never even been on a vacation anywhere because our parents wouldn't like it! Ahhhhhh! She drives me crazy. Ok, rant over. haha. I am out of here tomorrow thank goodness.

Wish me luck!

Stay Strong and Skinny,

P.S. As usual, I have a few non thinspo pictures that are still relevant to this post. ;)


  1. nice post! i love themed thinspo...try and stay strong through the weekend :)

  2. Hello girls I have returned to blogger after trying to lose weight the healthy way and developing a better mental health I gave up I threw it all away to become "Delicate!!" Threw all my hard work away so I could eat from one extreme to another, to get to my goals quicker!! As many of us do we give up and think it will be easier and quicker to try a stupid diet which you only end up binging and back to square one!!

    I am ashamed of my choices and want to continue down my path of being healthy!! I can not believe I nearly threw it all away!! I have decided to give it my all 100% and nothing less!! I will reach my GOALS but in a HEALTHY way!!

    I too want to look great in a Bikini, in that Little Party Dress, in those CK Jeans but I want to ROCK them without feeling GUILTY, without LYING to all those around me and to not be KILLING MYSELF in the process!! I want to look HOT in ULTIMATE HEALTH and HAPPINESS, I want to have AWESOME SELF ESTEEM and I want to ROCK CONFIDENCE!! I want to earn the JOY of achieving HEALTH - HAPPINESS - SELF ESTEEM and CONFIDENCE the right way not the wrong way!! I want this more than anything in LIFE and I am going to get it !! It is now or never, there is no looking back!! Please support me and I will return the favor!! I choose to follow girls with distorted eating as I feel they understand what I am going through compared to "normal eating" girls they just think I am crazy!!

    I am putting this every where because I know I will influence at least one person out in this great big world to never give up and to keep trying!!

  3. I'm loving the British thinspo (and HP boys). I hope you have a fun day with your boy tomorrow. Parents can be such worrierss sometimes; I think it's the I-can't-believe-my-baby-is-all-grown-up thing, but what can you do? Sending you lots of skinnies for this weekend. =)